Thoughts

1. Why does one go their whole life without a love then all of a sudden there are more than one person you fall for?

2. How do you know who is a better choice?

3. Will things ever be the same between us?

4. Was I just a pawn or were the things you told me true? Did you really love me? Did I really mean a lot to you or was it the pills that meant everything to you?

5. Why did you have to move away we were just starting to hang out? Will we ever be more than just sex?

6. Can I ever let my heart truly love you?

7. Why did you hurt me? Why when I try to sleep at night all I see is your horrible face hovering over me? Why can I still feel your breath on my skin? Why can I still hear your voice? How can I get rid of the memories of you? Its been years but your still in my head...

So have you ever wanted something so much but don't know how to get it or afraid that by saying you want it you will lose it.... its so hard to be around the one you want but not be with him....

How is one supposed to say what they feel?

So I've been hanging out with some old friends and just been having a blast its made me realize how much I've missed em.... lets party it up bitches....

omg

OMG!! fucking grow up already. quit being a stupid ass mother fucking whore and grow the fuck up!! no cares about ur little dramas u r a drama whore!!!! quit playing the fucking pity me card no one cares just shut the fuck up already!!!

Thoughts on insignificant things and some that aren't lol

So many of u may know that I usually have an opinion on things which I usually keep to myself but I'm going to share them now.

1: Why is it that things traveling by ship is called cargo but by car is called shipment?

2: How come when u finally open ur heart to feel it ends up being crushed?

Is it because the person ur opening ur heart for has not feelings and is insensitive or is it cuz u did something wrong to make him not open his? Everytime I open my heart and let someone in regardless of whether it is love or friendship I always end up getting hurt. Friends leave you the minute a new flavor comes around and guys hurt u cuz they can. It is fun for them.

3: Why are some peoples lives easier than others and why do some people always have trials?

I know that God said He would never give us more than we can handle but He is pushing me to my limit. I don't know what I ever did to make him think I could handle so much. Cuz I can't.

4: So are zebras white with black stripes or black with white stripes?

5: How wood can a wood chuck chuck?

6: Do ghosts really exist?

I believe they do there is so much real evidence out there for proof of their exhistance but all the fuckos who put out fake evidence intensify non believers non beliefs. lol. Also people are too afraid of the unknown to reasonably consider the possibility that people who have died haven't moved on and are still clinging to some form of life on this earth. Whether it is to get their story heard or to look after a loved one. If people have the capability to believe in angels and demons why not ghosts?

7: When life seems to hard to stand there is always someone there willing and ready to push u down. Fuck those people!!

8: Why is it that when ur trying to get ur life back on path obstacles are thrown in ur way that make you stumble?

U would think that when u've asked for help to change ur way that God would be there to give u strength but instead he just sits back and doesn't help at all. Allowing the devil to push u down and stop ur progress. Does He get a kick out of watching people fall? Does He say to himself and others around Him how far can she fall?

So how is everyone doing?

These past couple of weeks have been absolutely crazy!!! I have had so many thoughts going through my mind that its just insane.

First of all, why do people in this area, Utah, feel like they are so superior to everyone else. They think that just because they are a certain religion they are better than those who aren't or those who are but are trying to discover for themselves if that is the way they want to live. Seriously people just let us live our lives the way we want to without judging us.
GROW UP!!!!

Second, why do colleges and universities feel like they have to charge $1,600-15,000 a semester. Don't they understand that the majority of us don't have mommy and daddy paying the bill. They are money hungry greedy bastards that we can't live without. Damn them!!

Well I gotta go I'll finish this rant later

Trista Ballard